If we could correct our past mistakes and resurrect our present … we sometimes think with some desperation.
Then what could happen?
Our life would have been much safer, stronger, secured … we reply to ourselves.
But that reply does not end the wistful feel that has bothered us. Again the buzz goes on in our mind in the most nagging way: If we could correct….
What is today is tomorrow’s past yesterday. What we do today will be scrutinized tomorrow with some critical mind. Faults will be exposed; reasons explored.
Blame will then be hurled on today’s decisions. Mind will emerge the sole culprit. The urge will be there to “crucify” the past and its mistakes.
This process continues life-long irremediably.
“Gobheere jao” says a Bengali lyricist and singer. Dig deeper.
You will find it is your ego that silently works its way towards ill decisions and their severe implications; and funnily it is your ego that exposes them the very next day.
The need of the hour is to get rid of ego.
How is it possible?
To make it possible we need to know what ego is.
Ego is an absence, not presence, of light. So it is problematic. Because, it is negative.
Just as a roomful of darkness cannot be pushed out, cleared out whatsoever is the effort being put in, ego cannot be driven out from mind whatever painstaking labour you plough in.
It takes just a candle to snuff out the monstrous darkness in the room.
It takes a self-realisation to vanquish ego form mind. An enlightenment.
Then mistakes might happen; but they are not hurried for correction but contribution towards an understanding life.